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God, I yell at you for this every. Single. Time but oh god, I can't believe you killed Carson when John was wee. Wee!John is devastated, Sheppard will feel even worse because he wasn't there and will be grieving long after everyone and worst of all Carson doesn't get to see John fixed. I swear to god, I really do hate you right now. Y'know, through the tears that are steaming down my face.
“Can I use a wed pen?” John asks hopefully as the scientist splutters and clenches his fist.
*laughs through the residual tears* (The whole damn section up until this point, is heartbreaking. I still hate you.)
“You is stupid, Wodney.” The boy catches up to him and tucks his hand into Rodney’s. “I don’t hate you, I wuv you.”
“I…” Rodney stops walking and looks down at the boy clutching onto his hand. John’s looking at him as if he’s just gone insane, but he can’t quite move. “I…you do?”
"Wod-ney," John rolls his eyes. "'Cou'se I do."
*insert handwaving flailing incoherence* (I'm still not forgiving you for the above.)
He glances around the room at the scientists gleefully tapping away and exclaiming at everything and anything and realises, with a deep, aching pain in his chest that he needs Sheppard for this. Not the boy who’s currently curled up in the control chair in the centre of the room, drooling on Evan’s chest, but Sheppard, the man who shares the adventure that Atlantis brought into their lives.
Ok, so much glee for the bit before this, but oh god. *heart shatters*
The whole scene where Rodney has fixed the machine and John comes to Rodney and Rodney says goodbye? Heartbreaking. And I think I'm crying again.
Suddenly registering the wide-eyed look and the gesturing, Rodney snaps out of it. “Oh!” he says and turns around, breaking the controls to the door before anyone else can get in.
Oh thank god they're getting some time to themselves before John has to face the city.
“Three years,” Rodney says hoarsely and Sheppard nods. “I...”
This. God, this I am going to come back to later, when I've finished.
They fall into an easy banter, remembering all at once how to be friends with an ingrained instinct that needs no prompting. They talk for longer than they ever have, about everything and nothing at all and, slowly, the ache in Rodney’s chest begins to fade. He wonders if it’ll ever go away, wonders if he even wants it to, but most of all he wonders at the fact that he doesn’t feel so alone any more. He knows that he’ll never have that same bond he had with John with anyone else, but, deep down, he knows it doesn’t matter, because he’ll always remember. And he has Sheppard.
And my heart is breaking all over again, because of what Rodney's lost, and that he can't have that with Sheppard and my heart is breaking.
“You back on duty yet?” she asks and, when Sheppard (looking a little confused at the abruptness of her question) shakes his head, ‘no’, she grins unrepentantly and pulls him into a hug that once again surprises the room into silence. “Glad to have you back, Johnny,”
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Date: 2009-05-07 12:27 am (UTC)God, I yell at you for this every. Single. Time but oh god, I can't believe you killed Carson when John was wee. Wee!John is devastated, Sheppard will feel even worse because he wasn't there and will be grieving long after everyone and worst of all Carson doesn't get to see John fixed. I swear to god, I really do hate you right now. Y'know, through the tears that are steaming down my face.
“Can I use a wed pen?” John asks hopefully as the scientist splutters and clenches his fist.
*laughs through the residual tears* (The whole damn section up until this point, is heartbreaking. I still hate you.)
“You is stupid, Wodney.” The boy catches up to him and tucks his hand into Rodney’s. “I don’t hate you, I wuv you.”
“I…” Rodney stops walking and looks down at the boy clutching onto his hand. John’s looking at him as if he’s just gone insane, but he can’t quite move. “I…you do?”
"Wod-ney," John rolls his eyes. "'Cou'se I do."
*insert handwaving flailing incoherence* (I'm still not forgiving you for the above.)
He glances around the room at the scientists gleefully tapping away and exclaiming at everything and anything and realises, with a deep, aching pain in his chest that he needs Sheppard for this. Not the boy who’s currently curled up in the control chair in the centre of the room, drooling on Evan’s chest, but Sheppard, the man who shares the adventure that Atlantis brought into their lives.
Ok, so much glee for the bit before this, but oh god. *heart shatters*
The whole scene where Rodney has fixed the machine and John comes to Rodney and Rodney says goodbye? Heartbreaking. And I think I'm crying again.
Suddenly registering the wide-eyed look and the gesturing, Rodney snaps out of it. “Oh!” he says and turns around, breaking the controls to the door before anyone else can get in.
Oh thank god they're getting some time to themselves before John has to face the city.
“Three years,” Rodney says hoarsely and Sheppard nods. “I...”
This. God, this I am going to come back to later, when I've finished.
They fall into an easy banter, remembering all at once how to be friends with an ingrained instinct that needs no prompting. They talk for longer than they ever have, about everything and nothing at all and, slowly, the ache in Rodney’s chest begins to fade. He wonders if it’ll ever go away, wonders if he even wants it to, but most of all he wonders at the fact that he doesn’t feel so alone any more. He knows that he’ll never have that same bond he had with John with anyone else, but, deep down, he knows it doesn’t matter, because he’ll always remember. And he has Sheppard.
And my heart is breaking all over again, because of what Rodney's lost, and that he can't have that with Sheppard and my heart is breaking.
“You back on duty yet?” she asks and, when Sheppard (looking a little confused at the abruptness of her question) shakes his head, ‘no’, she grins unrepentantly and pulls him into a hug that once again surprises the room into silence. “Glad to have you back, Johnny,”
Laura is kinda awesome. *g*
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